My Beloved Angel,
Words cannot express how I feel about you (and it seems like my fingers can’t find the proper spots on the keyboard either. I’ve never had to type so many backspaces in my life).
In any case, my heart fills with joy at the thought that one day I will be rejoined with you in another dimension and we will be able to fully share the depth and breadth of all creation together.
I thank you for so many (yet so few) years of passionate, deliberate and empowered
love that we have embraced together. With you, I have found reason and joy. I have found love and perspective and everything I could have wished to find in life. You have led me to the four corners of the earth, to the farthest reaches of the universe and to the ends of space and time. And all of that was just this morning when I thought about you stepping into the shower.
Do I really need to say how your beauty rivals that of the great master sculptors of
all time? Or that the greatest painters of all time could never capture an iota of your
glory? Somehow, I think that if I did manage to capture all those things I would
make a fissure in the universal time stream and all of the universe would collapse in
on itself. And that could screw up what happens after I transition, so I don’t want to do that.
What I really want to do is express my love for you. I’m not clear on how to do to that.
I will try to be as succinct as I possibly can:
Without you there would be nothing and I would have no reason to be here.
I am trying to debate whether I should share this with you this morning or
have you wait until I pass. I believe I will share it with you now, because
it will be nice to see your reaction with my own eyes.